The other day after ending the current relationship I was embarking on I was feeling really choked up - I had felt that since I wasn't in perfect shape I 'should' settle for a man who wasn't perfect either.
To heck with that! I mean I know nobody is perfect but hear me out...
I finally had the crack of light shift, earth quake really, that I deserved someone that was put together. And not that I needed to settle because I needed some healing love. I mean I have done lots of work on myself, it's not too much to ask that he has too.
There is a big difference in a relationship when a partner needs a little healing balm of love as opposed to an entire lifting out of the ditch to then piggy back on my good nature - I'm not saying that is what he did - I cut it off quick - but I saw it heading there and there was no way I was going to do that to myself again.
But why did I repeat the pattern? At a great talk yesterday this was addressed and it was said that 'repeating patterns is a way of learning what we need to learn in order to grow - and each time we repeat the pattern and learn from it it breaks it down a little more' whew. Thank goddess I am learning!
So my new years belief is this: That I really and truly believe that I deserve a fantastic partner not to carry all my burdens but to be my friend and offer a helping hand and a card for a great therapist if I ever need it. I will do the same.
Happy New Years Love - I wish for you to get what you deserve too! Xo